the feeling of being so alone and full of shame and the constant anxiety can make you wanna get away.
Dark thoughts happen in isolated rooms with nothing to do when shadows over look you.
Taking drugs or altering your mind to escape reality can feel like quite the vacation. a sensation of relief like dipping your warm toes in a cool, calm lake.
Like a warm blanket that surrounds you and keeps your blood circulating with a pulse.
You can escape from reality, but only so often its like a rubber band. You can stretch it for a while, but eventually it either snaps back or breaks off.
i just sit at my computer and type pointless words and phrases into search engines, hoping that somehow it will save me from how i feel; or give me the answers i need to feel satisfied with myself. Trapped inside these walls, I feel lost, depression and anxiety try to take me away again. As I listen to the rain drip against the roof, and smear against the window, distorting images of the lonely neighborhood into an gloomy abstract world of art; a sense of comfort comes about.
